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Nineteen's Bluez

Everyone dropped out
when they were sixteen.
I watched my friends turn into pedophiles,
sex addicts, sexual predators.
I saw them listed,
screwed into society.
They tried to eat me up
while I sat in a candy bowl
on the coffee table.
They tried to lure me in bedrooms
with cocaine and kisses and threats,
like I was rolled flat
with bobby pins sticking out,
waiting for my drug
dream to manifest.
I never felt a thing.
I left them in exchange
for real debt.
Now I owe them shaved legs
and apologies for leaving.
I owe my youth to them
so they do not fear their death.